Reagan – Month 6
Reagan hit 6 months in March and it was so surreal to me.
Something about 6 months just hits you right in the gut and makes you in denial that you are now the parent of a 6 month old. Like how did that happen? I feel like I just came home with her. And I feel like people almost look at you different. You’re no longer a new parent. You’re seasoned. You TOTALLY know what the F you’re doing right? I mean, you kept a human alive for 6 whole months….you don’t get to tote around the new parent badge anymore. Your complaints about being tired are a little tiring in and of themselves to anyone else outside your house.
Not that anyone was nasty or anything like that, but there is a shift in how people treat you I (and other mom’s I’ve talked to) have noticed. No one really asks how “you” are doing anymore. Its all about baby. You’re expected to have your shit together.
So take it from me…its totally fine that you don’t.
As for Reagan, she was starting to act more and more “big kid” like and less baby. She was becoming more independent as the weeks ticked by. She wanted to play with us, but it was more than evident that she very much gets tired of Thomas and I too and sometimes wants to play by herself. Which can be nice but sometimes I can’t help but be like ” oh reeeealllll cool, Reagan…I mean, I only gave you life.”
Thomas and I at this time were both working 100% from home. We’re work from home/stay at home parents…which is kind of a new trend I’m noticing. We had it in our minds that we wanted to try to keeping at her home the first 6 months and out of daycare if possible. Its taken a lot of learning and communicating and frustration sometimes, but Thomas and I have made it work. We just did not have it in our budget right now to pay for daycare in the city, and we knew that from the get go. But I knew by 6 months we were going to start needing some help. Luckily our dear friend Megan comes over when she can to entertain Reagan and we also began the hunt for childcare options.
But we knew that we had to get seriously organized at this point if we were going to continue this lifestyle of work from home/stay at home parenting. Because Reagan was no longer going to just lay there with a few toys. She was rolling all over the place for a while, but she had gotten so good at it, she could pretty much roll from end to end of the house like a barrel. And while it wasn’t crawling, we had to admit to ourselves (again…denial) that she was finally mobile. Which meant she was getting into EVERYTHING. She was planking and getting up on all fours all the time. We knew it was only a matter of time before she started crawling. She just couldn’t figure out the details quite yet.
But for us as parents, that meant no more working on your laptop while she just laid there or rolled a few feet. There was no more working AND watching Reagan anymore, which was a bit of a hard pill for us to swallow because we were finally getting somewhat familiar on how to do all this. But thats the advice everyone gives you….right when you get comfortable, those little tricksters just switch things up on you, always keeping you on your toes.
(Sidenote – a lot of people have asked how we do the whole work form home + parenting juggle so I hope to write about that one day soon…just gonna add it to that never ending to do list, but I do want to share more about it!)
March was a good and sad month all in one. Thomas’ Uncle Carmen also passed away after a long bout with cancer. If you ever went with us to PCB, you probably stayed in his place as him and Judy were always so kind to let us use it.
And whenever I think about Reagan’s delivery, I’ll always think about Carmen and his wife Judy. Because the day I went in for my IV treatments, I was at the same center as Carmen getting his chemo. So when I was done, we chatted with him and Judy for a while, which I’ll always treasure. At 38 weeks pregnant, I knew as the other people who were undergoing chemo sat and smiled at me and made small talk about pregnancy and children (I was there for 8 hours…I talked to a lot of folks), there was something unspoken that was just quite beautiful but I don’t know how to put in words. The cycle of life I guess. Here I was about to give birth and some of these folks knew that their time was limited. It really moved Thomas and I when we left what we had just experienced.
And Carmen and Judy would actually be the last people I saw before I went into labor later that night. My plug actually came out when I was talking to them lol.
Anyways, we had Carmen’s funeral as well in March. And since we don’t have childcare…she got to attend the wake and funeral. She gave out loads of hugs and kisses those 2 days to her extended family, lots of which she was meeting for the first time. It may sound silly but I feel like she knew who to give some extra love those few days. She held Judy’s hand as we paid our respects to Carmen, thats something I’ll never forget.
On a positive note, my dear friend Maggie had her baby, Elizabeth James and Reagan was excited to get another new BFF. And my dad came to visit and we got some solid father / daughter time in as we went to a WordPress conference together downtown. I honestly couldn’t tell you the last time I got to hang out with my dad as much as I did that weekend and just sit and have life chats and a few drinks (wine for me, screwdriver for him obvi). I also made him do a little photoshoot with Reagan, which I will treasure these forever.
In March, we also started something new.
One minute we’re like this. The next….
Here’s some other snaps from March: